Chocolate, Dress and god,

 Chocolate here chocolate there, I wish i have a constant supply of chocolates in the fridge.

Brother just brought Cinnamon melts and chocolate melts i prefer cinnamon though.

Thank you so much abang. Love you.<3

 I really like how she paired up the corset with that beautiful nude pleated skirt. it cuts just at the right length, not too long and not too short so it does not show too much and is conservative at the same time. She looks really elegant with the up-do and that simple Chanel-look-alike clutch. I really like the free bird on her necklace, i always loved that bird, it shows hope and freedom. <3

For the past few days i have not been fasting due to Female reasons. I really feel bad that i'm not fasting but i can do nothing. I really hope that it would end soon and i can perform Terawih as well as solat. In this beautiful month of Ramadhan i must perform my prayers and ask for forgiveness from the great almighty , Allah. I find it stupid that i used to miss it or purposely miss it due to my lazyness, this shows how weak my Iman is and i am forever regretting my wrong doings.

I'm reading a book currently by Leila Aboulela called Minaret. I still don't really have the idea of the story but i hope this is one of those stories that would change my attitude spiritually and mentally. Does this two words

have the same meaning? I really did not mean it that way. I feel  like i am changing for the better ther is still some bad attitudes or things about me. But i can feel the change and it is making me feel much positive in life. 

In the book there is a paragraph that i'll like to quote.

The mercy of Allah is an ocean.Our sins are a lump of clay clenched between the beak of a pigeon.The pigeon is perched on the branch of a tree at the edge of that ocean.It only has to open it's beak.

This quote has so many meaning to it and i could live by that quote. It may not really be such a moving quote but that quote gives me hope that there is a chance for me to enter heaven in Akhirat. It is one of those things that scares me the most. I usually think about it. I mean one day or another i am going to die and return to Allah. I would prefer to be at my best and show him that i change.

I read in a book, or more like i learnt in one of my "studies" in mosque, that most of the "people" that enters Hell are women. This just shook me and made me think and wonder what i have been doing that might have just contributed it to be in my sins list. It is so simple for us to enter hell as women and so easy for men to enter heaven yet some of them do not try or do their best in doing so. I would love to be a better servant of god. I hope he receives my prayers and forgives my sins. Insyaallah i will change for the better. Insyaallah. Amin.

I am sorry if any part of my post might have gone against your perception or thinking and i am sorry if i have gone too religion-y in my post today. I just hope that world would change for the better. Insyaallah Amin.

With that, i bid goodbye. Assalam mualaikum. (: